well why do I go through all these different activities...I guess I don't know what drives me exactly either..I just know that I am so curious to learn about everything that exsits that I can't just sit somewhere and do nothing..the reason why I chose fencing for example is not just learn the techniques but I learn something far more important about life within those techniques...its like learning Marchal arts..why would you go through it..what are the chances that you ever use it?well its not the moves that I think are important, its the purification process, the fact that you realize the presence of a being without looking back and more that I think is the goal...I think the fact that you are not complete and the fact that you need to improve yourself is my motto in life..if you stay in the same spot, you rot..I want to learn new things from this teacher who has totally different outlook of life..he has lived for sometime in this life and he has experiences to share but its within those lessons..now its my time to learn it from him and pass it on to others